I Quit

It felt like a simple choice. The right thing to do. After much chaos and confusion, it was a calming truth. A simple knowing. An inner listening. It was my intuition.

I keep on hearing people say that intuition is not anxiety. It is not based in fear and it isn’t chaotic. Rather it’s a soft gut punch telling you to wake up to your inner truth. Not a gut punch that takes you out, but pulls you in. Being so disconnected from my truth and inner voice, I've been finding it hard to trust my intuition. Is this intuition, is this over-thinking, am I making a mistake, am I wrong, what will they think, I’m proving their opinions of me right, let me talk this through with one more person?.?.?.....

But this time it was peace. I knew and it was so. Sealed. My mind instantly went to next steps. Okay, so this is the choice you’ve made, what do you need to do next? What can you control? What does the other side look like? What does happiness look like for you over there?

Making grown woman decisions I guess is to stand ten toes down in them. Resting on the knowledge you’ve gained from your experiences, trust in God, and the possibilities of your life. Of you.

Even though I saw it so clearly in this situation, I realized I was trying to make a lot of things fit that just weren't meant to be. Or maybe it was fine for the time, but my calling has changed. I learned my lesson and God is redirecting me for application. Maybe I grew back there and I’ll grow some more over there. Maybe I need to be still. Still moving like deep waters but sure and vast.

Intentional. Prospective. Present. Working within the rhythm of my divine path.

Yea I felt that.

SoeSoulFull Suggestion: Excerpt - Okay, Now Listen podcast episode - "Okay, Now We're Saying No"